Today. The Current Frontier

Feeling Down And Out.

Betrayed By The Day

I Came Into The Presence Of A King.

Having Sinned Only Moments Ago

I Felt Paralyzed By The Self Guilt.

Unable To Release Myself To Worship

Unable To Look Upon The Face

Of The One Who Gave It All For Me

Unable To Sing The Words

I Love You More Than Life...

Because I Couldnt Even Stop Myself

From Sinning Yet Again....

I Was Broken.

I Was Shattered.

I Was Shamed.

I Was Teased.

I Was Betrayed.

I Was Sad.

I Was Down And Out For The Count.

The Brothers Had Begun To Shoot

Little Small Insignificant Darts....

That Made small Little Wounds...

That In Time Molded Itself Into Hurt.

Didnt Have Time...

Had Too Many Things To Do Today...

Had Planned To Spend Time With God.

Planned To Fast Her And Spend Time With Him.

Decided To Journal The Next Morning.

Knew I Had To Come Up With Some

GODSTORY To Tell The Worship Team Later On..

Felt Terrible That I Had Slept In The Morning

Instead Of Doing What I Had Told Myself To Do.

See These Three Stories Are Basically Life.

And Excuses That I Use So I Wont Have To

GIVE IT ALL

Its These Kind Of Days That I Have A REASON
To Hold Just Abit Back.

Its The Moments Where I Just Wish The Pain, Hurt, Guilt

Would Just Go Away

But You See Its Not About The Excuses

Its Not About The Whys

Its Not About The What Ifs

Its Not About The Reasons

Its Not About The Pain Hurt Guilt..

Its Not Even About Me.

Its All About Him. And If We Begin To Live To A Level And Calling

That Understand Who We Are IN GOD And Not In This World

Man. Thats It.

See I Heard This That Day...

If You Were To Take A 20$ Bill...

And Crumple It... And Mess It Up...

It'd Pretty Yuck.. And Pretty UnNew...

But Its Value Is Still The Same.

If You Were To Throw It On The Ground

Stomp On It.. Spit On It.. Or Even Kick It..

Yeahhh.. It May Be Down And Low..

But Its Value Remains...

You Could Even Tear It And Break It..

All You Gotta Do Is Run To The Bank

And Get Changed...

+sj

See Our Value Doesnt Change. How God Sees Us Doesnt Change.

Its Not How We Appear.. Its Not What We've Done..

Its Not What We Havent Done... Its Not Whats Happened To Us..

Its Who We Are.

Josh.